[Roimata]

This is a place where all my written manifests that I call poems will be stored.

For the moment, I shall post my two favorites:

Cliche:

Spoiler

So, So many things are able to keep us apart,
Gossip, Change, and Life itself,
But we are determined to keep this bond strong.
Even though these words that escape from my lips,
All seem very cliché to you,
These repeated feelings are true.
Every moment we spend together is like paradise.


Every laugh, every smile, every perverted moment with you.
This seems like my own fairy tale,
With you as the main character.
But soon, reality will break these thoughts.
But when I see you by my side.
It feels as if those thoughts are true.
Please, don’t let my fairy tale slip away.

I remember the times we hurt each other thoughtlessly,
And apologized the very next day.
I was able to realize that I didn’t want to lose you,
And all the good times we had.
But I think most of all,
Without you there,
I was afraid that this fairy tale would break.

Please, don’t let my fairy tale slip away….

Even if the day comes we have to separate,
And my fairy tale shatters like glass.
I wont forget the times with you.
When our faces flushed like mad,
With telling who we liked.

Those memories will never fade away.
It’s my perfect fairy tale.

My perfect fairy tale.
Here with you,
Laughing like this,
Crying like this,
Being scared like this.
I believe this fairy tale can’t get better.

Weakling:

Spoiler

As the these tears fall to the ground I shout silently,
Begging for forgiveness that will not be returned.
Throughout all the mistakes I have made,
Why does this one bother me the most?

Saying “I’m sorry.”
Saying “I’m sorry.” Repeatedly.

To no one.

It looks like I’ve disappointed you again.
It looks like I’ll be crying again.
Imagining fake scenes.
That never come true.

That is just how life goes.
For me.
For me.
For me.
And only for me.

Apologize I times many how matter no
No matter how many times I apologize
My voice will never be clear enough.
Silently fall tears hidden.

“I’m sorry.”
“I’m sorry.” For being weak.
It’s my fault.

Even if I never get the courage,
To say I’m sorry to you.
I will, then, always, have the satisfaction,
Of crying.

That is just how life goes.
For me.
For me.
For me.
It will never change.

So,
That’s why…
I’ll continue to cry.
I’ll continue being the coward.
Even being too scared,
To murmur “I’m sorry.”

Maybe through this song.
Song this through maybe.
Maybe through this song.
Song this through maybe.
You’ll forgive me.

[Roimata]

My new song of the day:

Change Me:

Spoiler

Being a young kid,
I was naïve and stupid.
But isn’t that what’s expected of me?
Isn’t that life is for?
To change who you are?

My thoughts and eyes,
They were oblivious to everything.
My biggest mistake.
Soon, everything hit me like a brick wall,
Drowning me.

Everything was falling apart.
I was so certain,
That death was what would become of me,
Voluntarily.

That’s when I discovered something.
Something not even real.
It took over my heart,
Finding it again.

Resurfacing precious emotions.
I cried until I couldn’t breathe.
My body had become alive,
Bursting with new thoughts.

So, with these new thoughts,
I stepped forward.
My future had become altered.
Creating new hope.

“Maybe, I can change something,”
I told myself,
But the opportunity of going back to that place,
Opened itself up.

My scared heart,
Began pounding fiercely,
Skittish adrenaline fueling it.
It didn’t want to be separated again.

With all these experiences behind me,
All these obstacles are growing smaller,
But tougher.
Now, with this new talent of mine,
I can survive.

Even when I’m fixing to fall again,
I can repair the link.
With this new strength of mine.
I will learn.

Now these thoughts and eyes of mine,
Are sensitive to everything,
Turning them into,
Meaningful feelings.

Now with this new dream I contain,
This new passion of mine.
I am determined,
To change the world.
One song at a time.

[Roimata]

Another new song:

Grim Reaper of Love

Spoiler

I am located in my usual spot,
Behind everyone around you.

This is nothing new to me.

I silently watch you get hurt.
I silently comfort your tears.
You feel so alone.

[Hey, what about…]
[The me standing right beside you]
[Please, don’t mention that word again]
[I’m your own personalized shadow.]
[So, you do not ever need to feel alone.]

Just when you feel like you’re alone,
And you’re going to shatter into pieces.
Please, just look behind you.

Do you see that long shadow there?
Does it seem like its taking form?
That is the me that has always been here.

My warm reaches out to you,
And my voice turns frozen.
Why do these glasses not an effect on my vision?

My existence is of no use,
When all of them surround you.
Yes, it’s no use.
I just get lost.

I can’t do anything about this conflict,
Because I am just a support beam.
To anyone, and everyone in existence.
But, in truth, my heart will only ache for your attention.
But that is also impossible to receive.

So, instead of wishing for your attention,
I’ll deliver my good intentions,
By straining my voice out to you,
Even though it only comes in faint whispers.

My dull eyes,
Will only flicker alive for you.
My heart will only show feelings for you.
My tired arms,
They only exist to grasp hopelessly at you.

Can you feel me manifesting behind you?

As you grow sadder,
You’re beginning to get colder.
Your gaze flickers behind you.
You desperately try remembering,
Those faint words I whispered to you,
And suddenly you can’t look forward.

You’re drowned in darkness,
Feeling guilty.
For not noticing that shadow,
That had always been there.

[Now, what are you going to do?]
[Hey, hey, hey…]

My dull eyes,
Will only flicker alive for you.
My heart will only show feelings for you.
My tired arms,
They only exist to grasp hopelessly at you.

Can you feel me manifesting behind you?

Your body is drawn in,
Slowly consumed by the thing.
That they never noticed.
Something,
Something,
But what?

Meh, this was a rushed song.

[Roimata]

My friend's birthday is tomorrow and so, I wrote her a song:

Run Away:

Spoiler

Hey, do you,
Do you remember the day we met,
In the class of math?
It was my first day of my new school,
And I was so nervous.

I was scared of not being accepted,
By at least one person.
The thought of that reality,
Twisted my stomach into tight knots.

That’s when I was placed conveniently,
In the group you were in.
My nervous heart would not be quiet.
That’s when you spoke to me.

The connection was felt instantly.
A familiar feeling I had grasped before,
But this connection lasted longer than I thought,
It counter-acted my fears.

Now its three years down the road,
Many things have been said and thought,
Separations of the mind had begun and stopped.

Hey, do you know,
That this friendship is the longest one I’ve ever had,
Without feeling neglected.
I would like to take this day,
And thank you for being there.
Even though,
I can be a jerk.

All those nights spent talking,
All those days spent laughing.
Don’t you think that they will be fun to talk about,
When we’re senile?

All those moments of sadness,
All those moments of confusion,
You were always there,
Helping me push forward.

Hey, do you think,
Maybe one day,
When we both get tired of this world.
We could run away together?

Even through all those selfish acts,
Even through all those painful words,
You still stood by me.
I would like to take this day to “Thank You.”

[Roimata]

Song dump:

Another song I wrote for another friend:

With You:

Spoiler

Can you remember the day where we made everyone mad?
I’m sure you can because that was very recent. (Ha-ha)
Even though I felt guilty, it was made easier with you with me.
That day became a treasured memory for me.

I also felt as if something else was born.
Something I could truthfully call “Friendship”.
Even if this doesn’t survive our lifetime,
I will always remember that precious memory with you.

So let’s go, so let’s go,
To create more memories together.
So let’s go, so let’s go,
Create the meaning of our life.
So let’s go, so let’s go,
Create more adventures together!
So let’s go, so let’s go,
So we can forget about our lives.
Right now, right now, right now.

Remember the cat we found?
I’m sure you do because that was very recent. (Ha-ha)
I remember noticing the special habits it had.
The little stance and its tail that loved to be a dog.

How we named it Griffandor,
And dubbed it as our own cat.
How it mewled and followed us playfully.
I still remember it clearly.

So let’s go, so let’s go,
To claim things to serve a purpose.
So let’s go, so let’s go,
And try to find Griffandor today.
So let’s go, so let’s go,
And give him a chance to find a reason to live!
So let’s go. So let’s go,
Right now, right now, right now.

Please?

Another song related to Friendship:

You Are A Good Friend:

Spoiler

The sky was ominous the day I met you
And the thing called friendship was mysterious to me.
You told me that it was fine
And that you were new to this too.
From that day on we became inseparable,
And we both discovered happiness.
Like a flower in full bloom,
We developed beautifully.


You are a good friend.


I wonder where you’ve been my entire life,
You answer sweetly:
“Wondering where you’ve been,
But being too afraid to look.”

We both smile shyly,
And you said words I’ll never forget.
“Let’s make a pinky promise,
That no matter what,
We will always be together.”

My pinky finger nervously interlocks with yours,
And we make solemn vow.
Never to forget or leave behind,
We smile endlessly.

A song I wrote for my mother on her birthday:

Memories:

Spoiler

I walk home from school deciding what to do first.
I have tons of stories to tell you about my day.
When they’re told to you,
I see that person in a whole new perspective.
I can’t believe I’ve never thought of it that way.

Ah, you are always there for me.
Sometimes I wonder if I deserve you,
A mother like you.

Even though we have disagreements,
I know that I can never hate you.
Even though our paths may separate one day,
I know that we will find a way,
To say “I love you” face-to-face.

I remember the times where we’ve laughed,
And the times where we’ve cried.
Even though sometimes we grow sad,
We are never alone.

Ah, I’ll never stop loving you.
Even if I am 500 years in the future,
Our bond will light the whole sky.

If our bond could measure out in words,
There would be no possible way,
To fit all these feelings, on paper.

I know that sometimes I have disappointed you greatly.
I know that I have done many wrong things.
But I know that I will always have you there to help me.
Help me, prepare, for the bigger ones to come.
So, that I will have the strength to fix them myself.

[St Awesume]

*clap clap clap* Bravo as always Kitty <3

O: I actually posted on here

[Roimata]

Why, thank you~ <3

[NijiroLake]

Wow. These are really good! Love the 'Memories' song.
Our bond will light the whole sky. Beautiful.

[Roimata]

New song, new song. ouo I wrote this one about my crush. Haha. >.>;

Coward

Spoiler

I’ve always told myself,
That I would never have feelings for,
Someone like you.
My heart is threatening catastrophe.

Now I stop short of breath whenever I am around you.
I get scared; I get scared of crossing the border between you and me.

The frequency of my voice never carries through.
It is always lost at the crossing-place.

At the realization that we could never exist,
I turn cold, I turn cold and my body shivers with fear.
My scattered heart and my hand desperately reaches out to you.
I am here, I am here begging for your attention.

My heart of mine has caused catastrophe.
I believe I will drown in my lust for you.

The frequency of my voice never carries through.
It is always lost at the crossing-place.

I don’t want to cross the border between you and me.
I’m too scared; I’m too scared because I am a coward.
Our worlds just seem too different.
So, before I have to say goodbye just turn this way a little bit more.

It's very short but I am satisfied with it.

[Roimata]

The Curse of the Bad Mood:

Spoiler

It seems like once again I’m drowning in my own misery.
No one glances this way enough to notice.
So, doesn’t it seem logical to just,
Suck it up and get over it?

But it doesn’t seem that easy for me.
My body is still in pain.
So, should I just disappear?
So, no one has to be burdened by this.

Someone attempts to help me,
But I just continue falling.
I’m too scared to tell my true thoughts,
Because they always end up getting used.

This personality of mine,
When did it get so twisted?

When did I start,
Driving everyone away?

When did I start,
Hating everyone near me?

I shall give an excuse,
It’s the curse of the bad mood.
An excuse that seems so illusional,
It’s been turned into logic.

“I’m just being selfish,”
I murmur to myself.
“For wanting attention,
When so many other people deserve it.”

In order to get rid of my selfishness,
I’ll just let society take over.
I’ll stand behind everyone,
Comforting the ones in pain.

Knowing I can’t do anything to make a difference,
I’ll just continue smiling like nothing matters.
That has always been the me,
That is projected in everyone’s eyes.

I’ll just continue existing here,
Like the cat you see every day,
Cruising down the street,
At your irritated heels.
Do you care enough,
To notice the small details around you?
Or are those worries you spread,
Going to take over your current logic?

The ability to pick right from wrong,
Has it finally evaporated?
So, you can’t distinguish me.

[Roimata]

Dive:

Spoiler

Dive into my feelings,
On this Christmas Eve.
The snow falls backwards all around us,
As our breathe ceases to exist.

I miss your sweet touch,
And that scarf of yours.
Your faint scent fills my nose,
As I breathe outwards.

There you are.
There you are.
Now you don’t exist anymore.
On that day, you disappeared into the crowd.
I forgot to ask you,
About your new phone number.
Because the one I have now does not exist anymore.

After two years, of chasing after you.
I saw her arms gripped tightly around yours.

Dive into my heart,
To gather the broken pieces.
After the realization that you were never coming back,
My tears froze on my cheeks.
I miss your comforting voice,
But I know that I’ll never hear it again.
One day I’ll even forget what your face looks like.

There I am.
There I am.
A shadow of who I was before.
I know that it’s selfish,
To have changed because of you.

But now I can look forward,
And resist the urge to look behind.
Now, I know not to fall for a voice made of silk.

Dive into my eyes,
To retrieve the reflection of you.
I have no more use,
In seeing your deceiving face.

I just miss the White Christmas,
That always had a happy ending.
But I guess being told not to hope in those,
Was the right thing to believe.

“Goodbye.”

Dive into my heart,
To gather the broken pieces.
After the realization that you were never coming back,
My tears froze on my cheeks.

I miss your comforting voice,
But I know that I’ll never hear it again.
One day I’ll even forget what your face looks like.

[Roimata]

Virtual Feelings:

Spoiler

I don’t even know what your face looks like,
With my own green eyes.

But,
Please still,
Stay by me even though this is a virtual friendship,
Even though this is suppose to be something nonexistent.

Please just continue being my virtual friend,
For my fragile, wavering heart.
For my wavering, fragile mind.

For my virtual feelings.

Even if tomorrow we’re not friends,
Or somehow we become disconnected.
I will keep the memory of your words,
Close to my heart.

Hey, I’m right here,
Hiding.

I’m right here hiding my self,
Too afraid to tell you my true feelings.
For what if you,
Aren’t real at all?

For now, I will imagine,
What you must look like,
With these fragile, wavering green eyes of mine.
Hoping that it’s not just my fantasy.


Even if tomorrow we’re not friends,
Or somehow we become disconnected.
I will keep the memory of your words,
Close to my heart.

Forever.

I can feel our connection growing.
We even sugar coat our feelings.

Our virtual feelings.

[ShouganaiYumeS&M]

Have you ever tried to put music with any of these?
I like them :3

[Roimata]

Nope, I'm not good at composing. =D

Also, new song that I just finished.

The Cat's Feelings:

Spoiler

There you are with your sweet smile.
Here I am with my selfish whine.
There you are with your gentle hands.
Here I am with my prickly glare.

There you are with your watery eyes.
Here I am with my sarcastic words of comfort.
There you are misunderstanding my meaning.
Here I am watching your fading back.

I need your smile,
But it seems that you don’t want to see me.
I, my, me, mine.
When did I become so selfish?

Now I have realized my prickly self,
And how I’ve come to easily hurt you.
Maybe, I should just act like a cat,
And keep away from the dog’s feelings.

But still, continuously,
I yearn for the soft smile you carry.
Will I ever become caring enough to keep you?

I would like to still see you,
Even if it’s only your back.

Here I am standing in the rain.
There you are staring apathetically at me.
Here I am wondering why?
There you are knowing I hate water.

Here I am feeling broken.
There you are showing discomfort.
There you are getting up slowly.
Here I am with my tears mixing in with the rain.

You need my sarcastic comments.
It’s okay to be selfish.
Your eyes hunt me,
Dangerously, like a dog.

It’s okay to be selfish,
And to lust after me.
Besides, I’m the one that will stay by you.
Even if your teeth scare everyone away,
And begin to make me shake.

I will continue standing by you murmuring “meow.”
Even if it makes you angry, and boiling mad.
It’s the only way I can show my affection.

If there’s protection, I’ll bark for you.
If there’s a cold spot, I’ll sleep with you.
If there’s an empty space, I’ll stand by you.
If there’s a warm touch, I’ll be the cold for you.

Please, don’t misunderstand me,
For I am quite a moody lady.
Mewling and hissing whenever I see fit.

Now I have realized my prickly self,
And how I’ve come to easily hurt you.
Maybe, I should just act like a cat,
And keep away from the dog’s feelings.

But still, continuously,
I yearn for the soft smile you carry.
Will I ever become caring enough to keep you?

I mewl softly. For you are whimpering.
I mewl loudly. For you are being hurt.
I mewl bravely. For I am still scared,
Of being selfish while standing beside you.

I felt like making something cat-like.

[Roimata]

Don't Say Sorry:

Spoiler

It seems that you’re in a bad mood.
It seems that I’m in a bad mood with you.
No amount of words change anything.
Nothing can be done about this.

The awkwardness continues between us.
We both feel terrible.
“I’m sorry that I can’t do anything,
To help cheer you up.”

You feel guilty,
That you’ve tuned my emotions in such a way.
Please don’t apologize.
You haven’t done anything.

If anyone should feel sorry,
it should be me.
For I can’t help cheer you up,
or even make you smile.

Even though I am your friend,
I have failed for what I’m stationed for.
So, please stop repeating those words,
It’s wasted apologies on someone who doesn’t deserve it.

Once again, it’s been several days,
Since I’ve had the chance to talk to you.
You seem to be in an okay mood,
Something that you’ve been short of.

Once again we’ve been forced to distance,
To faulty connections.
What are the consequences?
More bad moods are to come.

Dear God,
Why do you torture us this way?
You should know that,
we need each other.

Yes, we need each other,
So, we can survive this harsh world.
Even if one of us is unhappy,
We could be unhappy together.

“I’m sick of everything,”
You murmur the next time we meet.
The bad mood radiating and latching on to me.
“We’re friends so please don’t feel guilty.”
Your hair hides your face.

If there’s a connection, I’ll talk to you.
If there’s a bad mood, I’ll continue staying with you.
If the faulty connection keeps distancing us, I’ll continue fighting for you.
If you feel lonely, I’ll be right by your side.

Even if we permanently get disconnected,
I will continue thinking of you,
And this friendship we share.

“I’m sick of everything,”
You murmur the next time we meet.
The bad mood radiating and latching on to me.
“We’re friends so please don’t feel guilty.”
Your hair hides your face.

I say don’t cry as the rain begins to pour.
I say don’t apologize because after all it’s not your fault.
I say don’t feel guilty because after all we’re friends.