[Roimata]

Broken Links:

Spoiler

I remember the first time we ever spoke,
In fact, we didn’t really meet,
We just found each other through links.
That day is a day I’ll never forget.

I always,
Seem to dream of what your face looks like.
I also wonder,
How it would feel to have your presence near me.
Would I feel secure or will my heart begin to skip?

These thoughts, these thoughts,
I want to keep them friendly but my heart seems to think otherwise.
Even though, I know,
That something such as us can never exist.

But still,
Isn’t that the thrill of love?
Doing things that are past your limit.
Or am I, just being a selfish young kid,
Knowing ways to easily catch you,
And keep you.

Right now I’m content in being your friend.
Even though someday we may distance.
I’m content in just comforting you,
Whenever you are in a bad mood.

I always,
Seem to dream of what your face looks like.
I also wonder,
How it would feel to have your presence near me.
Would I feel secure or will my heart begin to skip?

If you ask me that question,
I’m afraid I would choke on my words,
With tears.

Because I’m afraid of the answer.

This song was actually meant for something but then as I began to write it, it got more...how do I say it....personal? So, now, its just a song since it can't be used for its intended purpose.

[Roimata]

Monochrome Days:

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The days slowly pass by with no events,
Just regular hardships anyone can face.
We walk home on no particular special day,
Happy that school had ended for winter break.

We talk about classes, frustrations, and silly topics.
Seeing that smile of yours makes this day something special.
You are the only person I have dubbed precious.
I wonder what would happen if I told you so.

As your foot was halfway to the ground,
You turned around and opened your mouth.
Your expression suddenly turned dark,
And your lips trembled with the words:
“I think about suicide everyday.”

I choked on comforting words.
“I’m sorry for not telling you before,
I was just too scared of what you might say.”

My throat tensed up and my eyes went fuzzy,
But for you I took in a breath and wiped the tears away.
I wanted you to have someone to talk to,
Someone you could lean against,
Someone you could cry to.

“You know, if you ever feel lonely,
I’m just a short distance away.
If I’m halfway across the world,
I’ll get to you somehow.”

“So, you don’t have to cry.”

[sleepysheep7]

There good, but I am having a hard time seeing these as songs. Mainly cause A: I need more information (Like what is the BPM? Chorus? Melody? Key? and Bridge?) Also most current day songs go Verse, Chorus, Verse, Chorus, Bridge, Chorus. ( "don't say sorry" is pretty close to this but the Verse is dragged out) Overall it's not bad, with some extra info and some polishing, these could be pretty good.

[Roimata]

I call them songs because of the way I write them but they're really just poem-like things. =D Thanks for reading.

[Roimata]

Ah, just something I quickly made. I haven't made a tile for it yet.

Spoiler

My feet step tiredly on the cracked Earth,
And my exhausted head looks at the dim horizon.
There's nothing left here,
In a planet that used to glow brightly.

My body fights for energy to move.
It's turning limp from all the wasted traveling.
My mind is starting to split.
It's hope is beginning to disappear.

My breath is slowly receding.
My strength is steadily decending.
"What will become of us,
Once we die?"
You whisper nervously.

"Don't give up,
We don't need that history.
The future doesn't deserve quitters.
Don't you think so?"

"So, don't stop moving,
Even when all these cliche comforts slip from mouth.
Don't stop moving even when your body falls."

[Roimata]

Melt It Away:

Spoiler

My tired body gets woken up early.
Oh, look it's Christmas day.
I should feel something inside.
After all this is a special day.

So, how come I couldn't really care less about what I get today?
Even though I know the items are what I've been waiting for.

I want to blast these thoughts away,
With music I hold so dear to me.
I want to disappear into a place,
Where I fly so high.

My exhausted sighs escape from me silently.
I hear the crying of the clumsy,
And the nervous laughs of the drunk.

It seems that for the first time,
I am having a White Christmas.
For the first time in a while,
I feel simple-minded again.

The snowflakes grace suddenly became harsh,
as they zoomed to the ground in larger clumps.
Now all I can do is stare out longingly,
Wanting to go home.

I want to blast these thoughts away,
With music I hold so dear to me.
I want to disappear into a place,
Where I fly so high.

My exhausted sighs escape from me silently.
I hear the crying of the clumsy,
And the nervous laughs of the drunk.

The words of selfishness escape from someone lips,
Nothing will be done about this.
Only warnings from the mouth,
and false threats.

My head aches endlessly,
which is drowned out by the endless beats.
The pulsating notes of the,
Music I hold so dear.

Please, just let this all drown away into the static of my mind.
The crying of the clumsy,
and the nervous laughs of the drunk.
Please, just melt it all away.

I wrote this about my Christmas day. >.> Ehehe.

[Roimata]

Snow:

Spoiler

It seems I'm still lost,
The snow has covered everything.
My tired eyes stare outside,
as my heart wishes to go home.
A sigh escapes me suddenly as I realize that the wish won't be fufilled today.
The wind blows the snow through the air.

I start to get frustrated at myself,
For being so selfish as to wanting to leave.
For hating to have a White Christmas.
For hating to have a sister to play outside with.

Everyday
Everynight
I still wish.
I still stare.
Everytime.
Every hour.
I still wish.
I still stare.

I stay up late again,
I become scared again.
I would like to sleep all day.
So, I would not have to face the words of,
"You can't go home today" escaping from someone's lips.

So, when I wake up I drown myself into a virtual world.
Pounding out increasing thoughts with pulsating beats.
Trying to pretend that I'm okay.
Tricking myself into thinking I feel hope.

Once again I stare out into the blowing snow,
A steam-filled sigh escaping my lips.
A hopeful gleam in my eye.
Then it disappears.

I start to get frustrated at myself,
For being so selfish as to wanting to leave.
For hating to have a White Christmas.
For hating to have a sister to play outside with.

Another day passes along,
I haven't went to bed yet.
My exhausted eyes glance outside.
The sun has glazed over the land.

My attempts to escape,
Fail me miserably.
My brain is tired of all this struggle,
Along with my body.

So, as I attempt to escape once more.
The melody shouting loudly in my ears.
I am fixing to just give up completely.
That's when I was given a final push.

Now for a while I can smile,
An exhausted look reaching my face.
I crawl into the sheets around me,
And close my eyes with relief.

I start to get frustrated at myself,
For being so selfish as to wanting to leave.
For hating to have a White Christmas.
For hating to have a sister to play outside with.

Just something made out of my last two days. As you can tell I got lazy and repeated a few times.

[Roimata]

Obstacles:

Spoiler

“If only I could be with you” you murmur.
What’s the problem?
You can be with me anytime you want.
It doesn’t just have to be physically.

“There are just too many obstacles” you reply
Name one if you please. What obstacle?
Isn’t talking just enough?
Please, just tell me.

There’s nothing separating us,
From being close.
It’s only a physical distance.
When you realize this?

Can’t you see how much I’m screaming,
To let you know my feelings?
Why do you just look the other way,
When I feel tears in my eyes?

What obstacles have you created?

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Co-Dependence:

Spoiler

Please don’t look at me that way,
With those tear-filled eyes,
Because I can’t do anything to help you.

I wish that I could be that someone,
That someone you can talk to.
Someone that you could possibly cry to.

But if there’s one thing that makes the wish impossible,
Is that I can’t even help myself.
So why should I be worthy of caring for you,
When I depend on others so much?

“I’m sorry” is the only thing I can say,
To make your sad feelings go away,
And also apologize for my uselessness.
So, please, until I’m worthy,
Just continue existing for me.

These barriers continue separating us,
But we continuously break them.
I continue to place myself in danger for you.

So with this virtual connection,
Don’t lose my feelings that I have for you,
And all those precious words we’ve shared.

Even though we live in separate worlds,
Don’t lose those words of mine that traveled just for you,
Because I don’t want you to feel alone.
I would just like to send an “I’m here”

“I’m sorry” is the only thing I can say,
To make your sad feelings go away,
And also apologize for my uselessness.
So, please, until I’m worthy,
Just continue existing for me.

With these feelings of mine,
I promise to reach you someday.
So, that you no longer have to be alone.
So, that you can have someone to depend on.
Someone that’s worthy to stand beside you.
Someone that you could possibly cry to.

“I’m sorry” is the only thing I can say,
To make your sad feelings go away,
And also apologize for my uselessness.
So, please, until I’m worthy,
Just continue existing for me.
You crying in front of me,
Makes me realize just how useless I am.
That maybe I don’t deserve to be with you after all.
So, until then,
Exist for your sake.

Can you guess who this is about?

[Roimata]

Reflection:

Spoiler

I see the shaking figure in front of me.
I stare at my hand.
I wonder if it could give them warmth.

I realize that I do not have the strength,
To help the shaking figure in front of me.
I am too scared to give them a hand.
I feel as if it would make the situation worse.

What a coward I am.
Am I coward a what.

Coward.
Useless.
These words,
Fly around me.
Sticking to,
My skin.

I can’t rip them off,
They only make me bleed.

Coward.
Useless.
These words,
Fly around me.
Sticking to,
My skin.

I can’t rip them off,
They only make me bleed.

The figure is now crying.
My hand stretches towards them.
I wonder if I can send my warmth to them.

I realize that I do not have the strength,
To help the crying figure in front of me.
I am too scared to give them a hand.
I feel as if it would make the situation worse.


What a coward I am.
Am I coward a what.

Coward.
Useless.
These words,
Fly around me.
Sticking to,
My skin.

I can’t rip them off,
They only make me bleed.

Coward.
Useless.
These words,
Fly around me.
Sticking to,
My skin.

I can’t rip them off,
They only make me bleed.

The figure has now become broken.
My hand grazes against its shoulder but only gets cut.
I wonder if through that touch my warmth traveled through.
I stretch my hand out once more but slowly find it back against my side.


I realize that I do not have the strength,
To help the broken figure in front of me.
I am too scared to give them a hand.
I feel as if it would make the situation worse.

As I begin to cry for the figure I finally realize that it’s just my reflection.

[Roimata]

Thank You:

Spoiler

The picture that’s fading hangs on the wall quietly.
Soon I’ll throw it out and I will forget everything.
I’ve learned that the face I never got to remember,
Has had an enormous impact on my precious few.

Ah, even though you are not here anymore you still linger like a star.
It’s a feeling incapable to describe by words.

If my mind refuses to remember you one day,
I would just like to go ahead and apologize.

All those moments when your stories were told,
Couldn’t have made me smile more.

Ah, that moment when you were taken away even though I wasn’t present,
When I told about it I couldn’t help but feel the urge to cry,
Because of the mapped out moments that were lost.
It makes my heart ache to this day.

Before that picture of you fades and blurs in my mind,
I would like to take the chance to say thank you.
Thank you for the time you lived.
Thank you for making me smile and cry.

I wrote this about my Grandfather. ouo;

[Roimata]

The Pounding Heart:

Spoiler

Happy heart is pounding. ‘Doki doki doki’
Please let these moments continue every day.

I walk to the book store.
I’m excited because the new volume has been released.
I open the door and the bell announces my entrance happily,
And I realize that’s not the only thing I’m excited to see.

Will he notice that my outfit is different from usual?
Will he even say hi to me? My thoughts invade my confidence.
I walk over to the shelf only to notice that the volume is sold out.
“I made this trek here for nothing.” I quietly murmur to myself.

Happy heart is pounding. ‘Doki doki doki’
As he suddenly hands the volume to me.
His smile makes my world blur,
“I knew you’d want it so I saved you one.”

This feels just like those cliché dreams,
I so often have at night.
But when he asked me what my name was,
I nearly couldn’t breathe.

The next day I walk in to the book store,
And this time his face turns brightly to me.
Then I see a girl attached to his arm.
He introduces her as his girlfriend.

Suddenly my whole body begins to shakes,
As I’m hit with a good dose of reality.
Is this just a dream?
If so please, someone, wake me up.

Pained heart can’t find a reason to pound.
These selfish feelings of mine has drained it all away.
What should I do now? I can’t be friends with him like this.
I put on a façade and smile happily.

Every day I watch your relationship,
My hope to have you slowly fades.
Then came that miracle of a tragedy when I come to meet after work.
She had left for someone else.

Happy heart pounds hopefully. ‘Doki doki doki’
As you suddenly look up at me.
“Why should I be crying like this,
When I have someone like you?”

This feels just like those cliché dreams,
I so often have at night.
But when his lips met mine,
I nearly couldn’t breathe.

Happy heart is pounding. ‘Doki doki doki’
Please let these moments continue every day.
Your smile makes my whole world blur,
And your kindness makes my worries go away.

Don’t become distant to my grasp,
Or I’ll fade back to that moment.
That moment where I could only,
Use my heart to express my feelings silently.

[Roimata]

Hovering:

Spoiler

As I cry my tears of loneliness,
Annoying others by whining.
All I want is a permanent shadow,
Someone that will never fade.
Crying and screaming over something impossible and selfish,
I look around to find that everyone had left.
These metaphorical and factual phrases stick onto my skin,
Remind me that nothing will remain forever.

Hovering in the blue sky above reality,
I watch as time passes by.
I watch all the people,
Getting hurt, laughing, and crying.
I feel jealously grip the edge of my tears.

My eyes quickly go blind,
As everyone I know speeds forward without me.
All those memories seem to disappear for them,
It seems like the friendship never existed.

Believing all these thoughts are just self-paranoia,
But being hit with doubt as no one is beside to confirm it with.
I continue to cry out with my empty voice,
Feeling the pain in my heart,
As it grows together with my paranoia of being a burden.
Hovering in the blue sky above reality,
I watch as time passes by.
I watch all the people,
Getting hurt, laughing, and crying.
I feel jealously grip the edge of my tears.

So what if I never find my shadow?
Isn’t it natural to lose everything?
Isn’t it natural to experience these hardships forever on your own?
All these excuses are just hiding the truth,
That I am just too scared to try.
So I will just accept my punishment for being a coward,
On my own.

“Look at the blue sky.”

[Roimata]

Candy:

Spoiler

The tense voice of a scolding mother,
Pointing out all the wrongs.
The squishing pressure of society,
And all the perfections that are not you.
All the papers piling on my desk,
And all those floating due dates hovering around my head.
I believe I could say goodbye to all of my worries.

If I could just listen to the sweet melody,
Of that soft guitar and the strong, raspy voice forever.
All my thoughts would melt into the pounding of drums, echoing softly, forever.

Why do people ignore the cruelness in this world?
Why do people acknowledge the goodness so quickly?
If they’re just scared why can’t they just get rid of their worries.

Of course, it’s easy to be irrational.
No one can think properly while scared.
So, instead if that’s true just let them be able to,
Melt away in the sugary melody of music.

Just like the taste of sweetness and how it satisfies the tongue for the moment,
Let the soft guitar cover your worries for a few minutes,
Like a soft hug during a tough day.

[Roimata]

Bad Dreams:

Spoiler

Every day these feelings are growing,
Making my chest curl in pain.
I don’t know what to do,
I’m too scared to say anything.
It seems that every time I bother to speak,
I get shot back down by making a fool of myself.
If I try to talk to someone I feel like they won’t listen.

“I get what you mean.”
“Do you really get what I mean?”
“Do you really get what it feels like?”
“Do you really get why I’m talking to you?”

Do know how it feels to feel lonely everday?
Do you know how it feels to feel stupid everyday?
Do you know how it feels to feel unwanted by people who supposedly care everyday?
Do you really get what I mean?

Do know how it feels when everyone calls someone else’s name,
And they never once call yours?
And how whenever you say ‘Hello’
You’re always the one to ask ‘How are you?”

I know I’m not supposed to be feeling this way,
But when the pain is felt in two separate worlds,
I can’t help but want to cry,
And ask myself why I can’t talk to anyone.

I’m sorry if these words are bothersome.
I don’t how to keep this bottled up.
If I had to die tomorrow I would just have one wish,
To have someone, someone tell me,
Just three little precious words.
I hope this isn’t to much to ask,
But can I receive an “I appreciate you.”?

Those words are so foreign to me,
I can’t even remember if they were ever spoken to me.
You can say “I like you, or I love you,” all you want.
But those words have become so cliché,
That I can’t even stand the thought of them.

Just take the time to think,
Of one reason why you’d miss me,
And turn around in some random moment and murmur those precious words.

I’m sorry if these words are bothersome.
I don’t how to keep this bottled up.
If I had to die tomorrow I would just have one wish,
To have someone, someone tell me,
Just three little precious words.
I hope this isn’t too much to ask,
But can I receive an “I appreciate you.”?


I know I’m not supposed to be feeling this way,
But when the pain is felt in two separate worlds,
I can’t help but want to cry,
And ask myself why I can’t talk to anyone.
I’m starting to hate this world,
Seeing everyone so happy without me there.
I know these are selfish thoughts,
But every time I shake them off they cling on to me harder then before.

“I get what you mean.”
“Do you really get what I mean?”
“Do you really get what it feels like?”
“Do you really get why I’m talking to you?”

Do know how it feels to feel lonely everday?
Do you know how it feels to feel stupid everyday?
Do you know how it feels to feel unwanted by people who supposedly care everyday?
Do you really get what I mean?

“I appreciate you.”
Those words are so foreign to me,
That I can’t even seem to grasp them,
But these tears begin to fall,
And I can’t help but smile widely.

Your body hugs me tightly,
And you feel so soft and cozy,
Just like a pillow.

Just like this pillow,
That I’m holding onto tightly.